Coulda, Shoulda, Woulda

Today would have been 7 years. I think back to the day I was married and I wonder if I missed something that I should have seen. Something that would have made me think twice. But all I remember was how beautiful the day was. I even felt beautiful for once in my life. I guess now I could say I should have seen it coming. I realize now I wasn't welcome into that family. I never really fit in. But I wasn't marrying them, I was marrying him. He was a different person then, a person I planned to be married to till the day I died. That's not the person he is now and I don't quite know when it all changed.

I notice couples out in public and I wonder if I'll ever have that opportunity again. After years of not being good enough, pretty enough, and smart enough, I have serious doubts that anyone would want me with all my imperfections. I want to find someone to love and who will do so in return. Someone who will accept & appreciate me for who I am.

Hopefully one day I'll be able to celebrate a 7th anniversary with someone else. Hopefully one day there will be a someone else. Cheers to finding happiness again...