Starting over

I never imagined I would be writing these words. I'm trying to pick up the pieces, even a month later.

My world as I knew it came crashing down around me on May 3rd. I came home to find the man I loved with every ounce of my being, asking for a divorce. His reason unclear at the time, but I learned all too quickly his motivation for leaving me. He was and had been in love with someone else.

My emotions have ranged from complete devastation to sheer anger and somewhere in between. But through all the pain and deceit, I've found strength I never knew I possessed. I've had to do things I didn't think was possible. And I've come out on the other side smiling.

I wish this wasn't my reality, but it couldn't have come soon enough. My journey to become a mom is far from over. I've heard the saying "everything happens for a reason" more times than I can count. The 5 year struggle with infertility makes sense now. I plan to pursue adoption or possible additional infertility treatments in the future.

But for now, I live.
My fall from grace was shortlived. I have too much to live for to wallow in what was. I know my future it bright and promises many wonderful things.

"One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering." ~Author Unknown